Tuesday 24 February 2015

I know you



If nothing else good came out of the movie Fifty Shades of Grey, the soundtrack is pretty good. I already linked one of the songs in my Valentine's day extravaganza without even noticing it was from the movie. I went to see the movie with Juju the other day (we're crazy like that, last time we couldn't decide what to see and ended up watching Prince of Persia - and liking it). I can't say the movie was good, but it wasn't as bad as I expected. It was mostly porn without genitalia so could've been worse.


Most of the songs in the soundtrack are melancholic. I find it strange that it hits me this well even though I'm not sorrowful. Listening to the song I linked above, I felt a strong feeling of wanting to make someone listen to it. That I wanted to say all that to someone. Until I realised I wanted to say it to myself. I have been patient but slowly I'm losing fate. Don't complicate it, don't let the past dictate.


I've never really been one of those people who thinks too much when it comes to jumping to opportunities. Lately I've been wondering if my emotional baggage has grown so big over the years that I can't let go anymore. The good thing is that whatever my thoughts are telling me, I still operate with full intentions like before. Jumping from a cliff head first seems to be implemented in me so strongly that it doesn't just randomly disappear. Right now I'm glad of that because I think I would've missed an opportunity. I have no idea where this leads yet but I sure as hell intent to find out. "All adventures in life start by showing up."

I wonder if other people get that feeling of being disconnected from the outer world, like you see from inside your skull... This might be the fever talking again. I don't know why am I sick yet again, but I think it has something to do with having a huge stress ball of life and when that loosened up a bit, of course I got sick.

This is my 93th post. I've been thinking of stopping when I hit round numbers. Because I've been writing this many times like a diary, I feel like things that might be better to stay inside my head are now out in the open for everyone to see. Before someone takes advantage of that it might be better to quit while ahead. But this is just a thought again, and since I'm the whimsical me, never know what's going to happen next. Also, I'm running out of inspirational quotes, which is weird because I have a whole wall of them pinned in Pinterest. If you need something thoughtful, you can find that wall under my wonderful alias Luci McPennyloo.

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