Lately I haven't felt like doing anything. There's this feeling of anticipation in the air, but I'm not really sure what I am waiting for. I've cleaned these past few days more than I've done in a year. I don't feel like reading, nor doing school stuff, not playing WoW, not doing anything. Good thing I tried Heartstone, the card game, otherwise I would be bored out of my mind.
My guildies have noticed my absence. My game time expired and I just didn't feel like buying more. I did eventually, but only because I felt pressured to show my face in the game. And we were supposed to have a raid today. Only four people showed up including me. Yay.
I even rearranged my room to be more efficient. I'm not sure if it looks any better but at least my computer is closer to window and I can let my mind wandering while staring out in the cold. I think I miss warmth too much. But only couple of months of school and then it's "vacation". Now that I have a job it's not going to be total vacation, but maybe I can take it easy.
I hope I can go on few trips this summer. I would love to visit many of the guildies. If I don't feel like hanging with them in the online world, I can at least spend time with them IRL. Good thing I get along so well with my housemate, she is great company when I'm feeling bored and lonely.
That's all. Not much posts to make, since I don't really feel like doing that either. I mean this. Don't feel like doing this.
Hang in there, I'll pick up the slack soon.
Internetian meets the world.
Sunday 23 March 2014
Saturday 8 March 2014
Fear and loathing
"Reading the news makes me want to drink more." said one person in the chat I was in yesterday.
Western countries are filled with news from Ukraine and I have no idea what else is going on in the world. I am not a politician nor do even I follow the news on regular basis. I'm no expert in this matter, all I write is from the common people's point of view. But here are my two cents.
One of my friends wrote in her blog about the fear of terrorism and how Russia is the big bad wolf of the world. She is Estonian and I think it's possible for Estonians to have even deeper implemented fear of Russian empire than us Finns. But the fear is strong in every European country, especially those who borders Russia.
There was one tank in our streets just travelling from place A to place B and people freaked out. You could almost hear the nation whispering.
Then there was a piece of news telling us Russia has occupied an old garrison they had kept empty for the past decade. And it's right next to our border. That scares the crap out of me too. But if I calmly think about it: if I was Big Bad Russia and every kid around me was blaming me for pushing this other kid to the mud, I too would raise my fists to be prepared for the incoming attack.
I'm not trying to say Russia is innocent, because we all know there's something iffy going on. Personally I've never agreed with Russia's points of views. And after posting this blog I better not go over the border because I probably will get murdered in some dark back alley (see how strong the fear is?).
The thing that irritates me the most about this situation is that we focus on Ukraine's situation with full heart - which is understandable for it being so close. There were riots and the country is divided, we blame Russia for it and take some actions to prevent this becoming the third world war. Because we care. We don't want to make same mistakes we've done in the past.
But we don't yell in fear, we don't take strong actions to condemn a certain other divided country. We don't do anything even though we hear stories about concentration camps and huge human rights violations. Because we are scared of the Big Bad China.
There is nothing to fear but fear itself.
Western countries are filled with news from Ukraine and I have no idea what else is going on in the world. I am not a politician nor do even I follow the news on regular basis. I'm no expert in this matter, all I write is from the common people's point of view. But here are my two cents.
One of my friends wrote in her blog about the fear of terrorism and how Russia is the big bad wolf of the world. She is Estonian and I think it's possible for Estonians to have even deeper implemented fear of Russian empire than us Finns. But the fear is strong in every European country, especially those who borders Russia.
There was one tank in our streets just travelling from place A to place B and people freaked out. You could almost hear the nation whispering.
"Are we going to war?"
"Is Russia attacking?"
"What's going on?"
"I'm scared."
Then there was a piece of news telling us Russia has occupied an old garrison they had kept empty for the past decade. And it's right next to our border. That scares the crap out of me too. But if I calmly think about it: if I was Big Bad Russia and every kid around me was blaming me for pushing this other kid to the mud, I too would raise my fists to be prepared for the incoming attack.
I'm not trying to say Russia is innocent, because we all know there's something iffy going on. Personally I've never agreed with Russia's points of views. And after posting this blog I better not go over the border because I probably will get murdered in some dark back alley (see how strong the fear is?).
The thing that irritates me the most about this situation is that we focus on Ukraine's situation with full heart - which is understandable for it being so close. There were riots and the country is divided, we blame Russia for it and take some actions to prevent this becoming the third world war. Because we care. We don't want to make same mistakes we've done in the past.
But we don't yell in fear, we don't take strong actions to condemn a certain other divided country. We don't do anything even though we hear stories about concentration camps and huge human rights violations. Because we are scared of the Big Bad China.
There is nothing to fear but fear itself.
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